Sixth Post-Final Project Post

Since taking control of my emotions I have been able to begin rebuilding relationships and become more optimistic. Though rare, I still think back on what I've done in the past and am deeply ashamed.* Every day I think about it less and less and I believe I have finally began to feel like my old self, even if it's not outwardly apparent.

*I have not written any of the specific events I have done in these bits of rage as I would rather not delve into it

Fifth Post

In eighth grade I began to act to correct my violent tendencies. I sought out various anger management techniques and put them into action through trial and error until I found one that worked for me. I found that by focusing upon music, any music, I could keep myself under control much easier. During this though instead of anger I began to sink into a wallowing depression over the guilt of what I had done throughout my life.

Fourth Post

I believe that to truly understand why I devolved to the point at which I had with rage my circumstances throughout this time of my life need to be explored more.

I have never truly been very sociable, preferring a good book or instead of the company of others. Until sixth grade I had been awkward among most, yet I had been able to cultivate multiple friends. Unfortunately, due to various events including the change to a new school, my friends moving away, or else otherwise loosing contact I became progressively more isolated until falling in with some who would tolerate my presence. These people I had realized were not truly my friends, yet I chose them over the alternative of isolation. As such sixth grade was a variable hell for me whether due to the decaying facility of Scott County Middle School, or the verbal abuse I was subjected to on a daily basis from my "friends".

Third Post

Around the age of six or seven I began to play football on various teems in the community football leagues that persist around Georgetown. Though never on any particularly great teams throughout these years I nevertheless grew angrier progressively having rage invade my daily thoughts. I constantly thought that this was good, that this would elevate me in rank among my fellows on the team. I was able to accomplish this on each team I had joined and had been one of the top three players in each team I had participated in. Eventually I reached the apex of these horrid changes around eighth grade when I realized that I had issues with the way my life was going and consequently sought out change.

Second Post

Throughout my life I have had several changes of perspective; as such my musical preferences have changed as well. Thus there will be little to no connection between my song choice in genre or even time period.

I began like most children as exceedingly optimistic. I cared for many openly and was able to share my views very openly without fear of persecution for what would come out of my mouth.